Kundalini : Obedience and Power

Between wake and sleep, she's telling me she will rewrite everything, rewrite me... my personal copy editor. I look at the clock, it's 1:11 in the morning. Early for me to wake up, but not surprised at the visit from Kundalini Shakti as I've become accustomed to feeling her energy at night. This time it was different because of the degree to which the energy was flowing through my body. It felt like I was highly caffeinated and very hungry. It was extreme enough for me to worry for the safety of my heart. I stretched every which way to move the energy around and out of my body. "Protect my heart," I said, breathing through it, my whole body on fire. 

"I am strong and powerful," she said. "Don't confuse the gentle nature of your awakening with how powerful I am. You will use my power upon MY command. This is the agreement." My initial response was to rebel. I never have been one for authority. After thinking about it for a while, I understand this to be my ego. 

For you to fully understand the lessons here I need to share some context with you. A few nights before, I watched a video from a woman six years past her Kundalini awakening and she was talking about how life had changed. One of those things was that she was able to ask Shakti to move her physical body and Shakti did. At the time I wondered why I hadn't received any of these amazing gifts that you hear so many other people speak of. I thought "Maybe my awakening wasn't as powerful or maybe there are different levels of awakening?" The next evening I thought I would ask Shakti to move me and see what happened. I was on a walk and I asked her to walk me and she did! To test it (because who would believe that even though it's happening in your body!!) I tried to stop walking and could not. It wasn't until I said "I'll take it from here, thank you!" that I stopped walking. As you can imagine I was shocked, joyful, and excited. Later that evening I asked her to put my hands into mudras and she did not. I thought "Maybe we just need more practice."

Here are my lessons in hopes this helps you through your awakening: 

1. The Kundalini path requires obedience and knowing your place in this mission. We are the vessel, the tool in which the Universe communicates unconditional love. When she said "You will use my power at MY command" it meant that she would not be doing any party tricks for me. These gifts will be used when the situation requires them. It reminded me of a vision I had months earlier where the Universe (God if you will) told me I would see with his eyes and speak with his words. I've had several gentle reminders of this, but this night she was a little more direct!

2. My rebellion to the first lesson was my ego (attachment). Surrender is the key here. Accept, bend, and let go. Resistance will only extend your suffering. 

3. The difficulty or the level of how extreme your awakening feels does not dictate the power of Shakti. Everyone will have a different awakening and the gifts will be experienced and used when needed. A pure heart is required.