Lessons in Authenticity from Las Vegas

When I was preparing for a conference in Las Vegas I knew it had the potential to bring some realizations and it didn’t disappoint! My Kundalini Awakening came to a close a few weeks ago and at that time I was told that I would need to learn how to walk again. …how to live again with this new life. Little did I know I would have to learn to walk again… in heels… all 12K steps. Here are four realizations from my time in Las Vegas. 

1. My discernment of people has never been more on point. Even as I sat there listening to the keynote, I could easily feel who on the stage felt legit (for lack of better words) and who did not. This discernment is not from a place of judgment, for I know everyone is love. It is however a good meter to identify who I should stay away from. 

   
   

2. I recognized everyone as “my people.” In the airport, the cafes, at the conference, all around me, I noticed all of the beautiful people. Each of them in their own world. I couldn’t help but see them all with love, beauty, and compassion. I caught myself saying, “Aw, look at all of my people,” several times. I’ll chalk this one up to Unity Consciousness. It’s been a while since being around larger groups of people. This was a pleasant surprise. The last time I was on a flight I almost lost it because I could hear everyone speaking, even through my noise-cancellation headphones! Another interesting “symptom” of Kundalini.

   
   

3. Authenticity is the only way. The first night I was in Vegas I had a client dinner and was excited to get dressed up! I had on the cutest hot pink heels! …but as I walked across the casino floor I felt uncomfortable. Not only was I not stable on my feet but I was becoming increasingly insecure in my appearance. I hadn’t felt that way for months, so I checked in with myself trying to figure out what was making me feel like this. I recognized that it was because this is not who I am anymore. It was even more evident after a later dinner I attended that week, but in contrast, I dressed much more in alignment with how I felt. I also had different intentions. This further enforced my understanding that when I am not authentic. Meaning I don’t have the intention of loving, speaking, acting, or dressing the way that is authentic to me, my energy will be thrown off.

   
   

4. The pre-awakened you is not you any longer. One night surrounded by friends, I told a story that was from my pre-awakened experiences as if it was still me. As I told the story I began to feel my energy shift, I was uncomfortable and to be honest, just felt bad. I realized I couldn’t pretend to be the old me. I can reference the old me for context, but I can’t fake it. That’s not me any longer so I have to let those old stories go and tell new stories, the ones that are steeped in love.