Lessons On Shadow Work

This summer has been all about unconditional love in action. That means, in part, manifestation—and I've been receiving a lot of lessons around that. Here's one where I realized I had to face my shadow side in order to move forward.

I went into my meditation with the intention of talking to God about money. But when I arrived in that space—what I call the edge of the universe, where I always meet with God—there was a dark figure with me.

At first, I tried to make it go away. It wasn’t exactly scary energy, but it looked scary—like a black cloak draped over an old, decrepit woman with charred skin. Then I realized: this was my shadow.

I tried to send her love, even hugged her, but she still wouldn't leave. So I asked, “Are you here because of the money?” She nodded yes.

In my vision, I sat in a triangle, drawing energy from my heart chakra and beaming it into hers. At the same time, light from God was flowing into both of us. I began speaking to her about pure God energy, about Love, filling her up light.

Then I realized—I could clear her energy the same way I do with my clients and with myself in the physical. As I lifted my hands, huge waves of energy surged through me. That’s when I knew I was on the right path. I straightened my spine and began working through all of her chakras. I told her gently, “Let it go. It’s okay to let it all go. You’re safe now.”

As I cycled the energy, something shifted. She removed her cloak—and standing there was Sahara. My future self. Sahara has been one of my guides for a while, though I don’t see her often. It's always beautiful when she appears. She’s literally me in a future incarnation—a higher, more unified version of myself. She’s the self where my soul is fully integrated in one body.

I hugged her and began to sob. And then, in a moment that shook me, I looked down at my arms—and they were charred and wrinkled. I realized I had been the shadow the entire time. I was the old, cloaked woman—being held by my future self. Trying to let it all go.

At the end I said (half joking, half serious), “Okay, can we not see me in that form anymore?”

Then it was just the two of us—sitting criss-cross applesauce, knee to knee, heart to heart. Me and her. My guide. My future self.

And here’s what I realized: The blocks aren’t about wanting money. They’re about the pain associated with money—from this lifetime and others. They're about the times I was hurt because of money. And now that those stories are done, I don’t have to respond the same way anymore. I can let it all go. I can live. I can enjoy this life fully.

It’s important to note: these blocks are often unconscious. The mind might not always understand what we’re clearing. But the soul knows. And that’s enough.