Soul Partner : Love and Shame

This is a conversation between myself and God about feeling shame after expressing unconditional love and gaining closure with my soul partner. If you ever find yourself in this situation, I hope this conversation will help lift you up and see the truth.

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Heidi: I've just felt this sense of shame and sadness. I don't even know why I'm sad. I know this is ego; I don't know why I can't get control of it.

God: Because you are human, my friend. You are just at the beginning of things. Did you think you would get away from this love without feeling sad sometimes? How silly is that? You have gone through so much with him; did you think you could just walk away without a little test, without a little challenge? I expect you to handle some things with ease, with no reaction, fully in control, but this? Did you think this would be the place out of all of the places that you would get out unscathed? 

H: Well, I hoped or thought...

G: Yes, you thought right. You are in a place where you can handle this, not completely without low points. But yes, we wouldn't have pushed you if you were not ready. We know you are ready, and this is in perfect divine timing, so don't fret. Trust. And yes, let go.

H: I know it is time. I just don't know why these feelings are coming up. It's almost more shame and embarrassment—maybe there was shame and embarrassment in another incarnation?

G: Maybe, but it could be about your social conditioning; maybe this is something else we need to work on: loving unabashedly. Loving courageously, loving just because, with no embarrassment about it. The desire, the longing, the tension, all of that, is also not something to be embarrassed about; that is human, and you are human. Granted, that is also from the ego, but why be embarrassed about that? Everyone works from that space. Should EVERYONE be embarrassed of how they act? Is he embarrassed that he responded from the ego?

H: No, he doesn't even know he responded from ego.

G: Right, he's unaware; not many people are aware. But you are. You are aware of your ego and of your soul. You get to choose your perspective; in fact, there are times when you choose the ego. You just sit back, watch it at work as an observer, and use it to your advantage. You know better now, but it's happened. So now you know this is coming from ego but you struggle to pull yourself out of it.

H: Yes

G: You need to be authentic. This vulnerable, pure love. Steadfast and all-knowing. This being of love and light, not wavered by an ego of any sort. This is God-like.

G: Do you think God feels shame?

H: No, there would be nothing to feel shame about.

G: No, not at all; God doesn't feel shame for falling in love with you.

God falls in love with you the moment you're created, as you did when you witnessed his soul being created. It is an instant knowing of love and beauty. Do you think God feels shame for loving you? For expressing its love for you?

H: No, I do not.

G: Do you think after everything you have been through, after everything you have seen, everything you know, after all of the moments of unconditional love, that you should feel shame for the way you feel about him.

H: No. 

G: That's right. No, no, you should not and will not. It is not the way.

In fact, the way forward is to be yourself without apology, without hiding, and without acting the way that is expected of you.

God asks you to love them courageously and asks that you love all in the same way. I know that is hard sometimes, but that is the truth.

So, go forth and love without any resistance.

H: Thank you. Good pep talk.

G: Truth talk rather.

H: Love you

G: ...and I love you