Soul Partner : Love, Was It All A Dream?

This is a conversation between myself and God about the way I feel or rather don't feel for my Soul Partner.

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Heidi: It feels like it was all a dream. It’s like he never existed. 

I know that’s not true, but it feels so far away now.

Out of sight, out of mind. When I don’t see or talk with him, I don’t know; it’s just not there anymore. And then I wonder, do I still love him? It feels empty. 

God: Love does not feel like anything. You, as in humans, have this idea that love feels like something. Don’t get me wrong, it CAN feel like something, and you have felt that many times now, but it can also not feel like anything. It can also feel like this calm, peaceful presence, this wonderful nothingness of quiet love, which is steady and true. It doesn’t feel lacking, desperate, reaching, or grasping; it’s just there; it doesn’t have to prove itself; it doesn’t need to be unique or different or anything; it just is, it is BEING, and you are BEING, and this is what you are feeling for John*. You are feeling love for him, this unattached unconditional love. It’s a beautiful place to be and a lovely understanding of the universe through another. You are God, individualized, and you love just like God. You always have, but it’s been clouded by your emotions and your mind. 

So when you have these detached moments of love, do not question it, and do not question me. 

This is truth in this moment, the present, and the eternal now.

There is a difference between attachment and love; don’t get them confused. 

H: Thank you  

G: Love is forever; it doesn’t end. Know that love is like your concept of energy; it is never destroyed. It’s forever. You don’t even have to ask the question, did it ever exist? Or did it go away? So when we think of love and how it can feel so intense… The intensity you feel is your ego; the love has always been and will always be there, no matter what you think or feel. 

H: I understand. 

G: This is the ego that questions the validity. It is the ego that asks the question. It is the ego that pushes you back to the doubt. 

It is the soul that brings you back to truth. 

And I believe this is in the Bible, is it not? Love never fails… that whole thing, you should look that up. 

H: I will thank you  

1 Corinthians 13

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast but do not have love, I gain nothing. 

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 

But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now, we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then, we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.

G: Your love is enough; you don’t have to prove it or show that it is unique in any way; it is pure and true, without any facade or trick; it is everything and nothing; it is simply there, and that is enough. You don’t ever have to prove yourself to anyone. This mind telling you the old matrix of proving yourself, showing how much you are willing to sacrifice, is outdated. You do not need to sacrifice anything. A man should and will love you simply because you exist. This is how you love him and how others will love you. This is how I love you. 

H: This is how I love myself. 

G: Yes, you are getting it now. You love yourself for just existing and being, and you think you are terrific and didn’t sacrifice anything for that idea. 

G: One more thing, I will never leave you; I will always be with you. You can always call on me when you need help. Or just a push in the right direction. 

H: I’m always grateful for you. 

G: And I you, my friend.